My heart has been breaking this past month for my almost three year old daughter. Our nanny left abruptly and completely unexpectedly and it has sent our life into more of a tizzy than I want to admit. And that includes her little life.
V had been with us since HPD was 14 weeks old. She was with us when my husband transitioned jobs, when our baby crawled, walked, got a fever with a side of teeth. She defrosted breast milk and made freshly smashed sweet potatoes in the Baby Brezza. She has been so flexible and takes HPD on outings. She introduced us to HPD’s favorite place in all the land–the pony farm.
It’s been stressful to patch together child care when I haven’t had to worry about it since we hired V. It’s been stressful to interview nannies off of care.com, people that I don’t know and no one I know knows. And my heart breaks more knowing these are her last chaotic days at home before she starts preschool.
I was reminded today by author Shauna Niequist that we don’t know what God’s plan is in the middle of the chaos, and it’s frustrating to try and figure it out and make sense of it when things truly don’t make sense yet.
Will our next nanny work out? What will our life look like as our girl starts preschool? What other changes might be ahead.
I look forward to the chaotic resolve. I look forward to telling the tale of what God provided that was better than I could have imagined.